whr i hide my feelings ~ )' :

2012-01-29T13:28:00.000+08:00

I just wanna apologise for those harsh words i said. I wanted to see if you could tolerate with my stupid attitude BUT instead you already replaced me with another girl which is obviously way more prettier than me and everyone knows it. You can continue with her but im just here to apologise and to thank you for every single thing. Even if you've cheated on me, lied and play ard with my feelings, your still the best thing i ever had. I'll never forget you and yr charming smile. Take care dude. :')

2011-07-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

What have i done? Why i cant get my happiness? Issit so hard? When am i gonna see that there's gonna be that one guy thay will love me with all his heart. Show me love, care &concern. I've always been getting heartbreakers. I just want my happiness. Thats all ;( there's this one GUY. The only guy that have made me into a strong lover. To still love and hold on no matter how bad the situation is. We just can't let go of each other. It is super hard. His the first guy that made my dreams came true. Yes..... But it was all in the starting.... Its all now vanished. Everything changed because he became into a guy which love to lie. But still i forgived him in everything. He would just do anything to make me forgive him. But, as days past by. I realised how bad is his attitude. He would lie, beg for forgiveness like fck. But would repeat the old same mistake all over again. Sooo after that it was a cycle of lies then. I just endure endure and endure. Then there is one day that really made me realised that i was just a fool all along. He made me like a fool. Yup his own girlfriend as a fool. I started to read and listen to motivations about love. I decided not to give him the love that i always do. It was okay first.... But even if i changed to the bad side, he didnt realised. He always say he regret regret regret. But nehh. I always have been sacrifising for him ALOT. He just dont realised that i would do anything to help him. Thr was once, i went out in the morning to help him abt smtg and be with him. I got home..... Sooo i was being beaten by my dad. I told him. He didnt ask me whether im alright or not. He didnt ask me if it was pain and whr thr pain is..... Urgh fck it. Everythings in a mess. Im falling out of love. I have to let go even if it hurts. For my ownself. Not to always give face and get myself hurt again. But his the best damn thing that i ever love. His the best i swear. But you changed. I can't do anything to make you change even if i tried SO MANY TIMES, but i fail.... Again and again.

I always get jealous seeing other guys could do anything for their girlfriends even also when they did not do any mistakes but to make sure that the guy meets the girl. To be cautious all the time. To be patient and give love even if the girl is being ego. To never watch the girl cry over him. Would make anything just to see the girl happy.

2011-07-10T07:48:00.002+08:00

We will do this all the time when we have nothing to talk. Especially during our high moments <3

2011-07-06T06:50:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA this is really sooo cute. Love you dear. The girl lie desperate only? HAHA

Make me feel like im the only girl in the world,

2011-07-05T15:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i cried. I was feeling so emotional and i don't really know why. I trust him, yes i do. He went out but he didnt tell me. When his outside then he told me. I closed one eye. Cause i don't wanna start the fire. But he called me at midnight once he reached home. I am really scared. Scared that he might do the same old mistake he did that got me outta my mind. Im just scared of losing him. And im pretty sure he doesnt wanna lose me too. But its just that i get too carried away by my insecurities that got me thinking so negatively about his actions. Im scared he might fall into someone's else arms. His just used to lying. But i just could not get used to it. Even a small lie, it means so much to my insecurities. I just want him to make me have that 100% trust on him back. I am just super deeply in love with my boyfriend. Haaaaish Miss you so much dear <3

2011-07-01T05:17:00.003+08:00

'Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them.'

Its a beautiful day,

2011-06-30T10:29:00.000+08:00

I wonder when i can have this type of dressing. In my mind, its okay if i got jealous seeing pretty girls. Cause this is the time for me to study and after i've got a job i could be wealthy. chey confident rabak. Soo now im in the school lab having cpa. My boyfriend havent text me yet. Obviously his sleeping or he was in a rush in the morning -.-' This friday we are gonna watch movie yaaaaaay. K bai i dunnoe what to blog some more.

Show me that is real,

2011-06-28T08:36:00.000+08:00

Im currently in school and im in good terms with boyfriend. Like seriously in good terms. We are going on smoothly like last time. I like it, cause its already starting of school. And i hope there won't be any problems come along. Cause n levels and prelims are coming up and i have to seriously get my ass of studying. August 15 is our 1st anniversary but im having prelims. Been wondering where to go. Im tight in cash right now. My dad doesn't drive his taxi anymore. Uhhhhmmmm. Its time to save up some money in the bank.

I love my favourite boy as always <3

2011-06-26T04:22:00.001+08:00

I wanna leave. But im scared to see him with someone new. That is my biggest fear. I hate myself for loving you.

2011-06-26T04:20:00.000+08:00

IM ALREADY USED TO BEING LIED BY SOMEONE I LOVE? LOL

2011-06-26T04:06:00.002+08:00

Aku cemburu. Cemburu tengok orang nye relationship happy!!! :( Okay fvck it. It seems like im the only one compromising in this whole bloody relationship. You? Uhm, you just do your job by doing things that will disappoint me, sweet talk, plan something for us and that's it. Your effort all ends there. While me? Im always here missing our old times, go out and spend time together. When the day we did not meet for 5 days, you didn't have the initiative to like meet me alone and spend time together. You met your friends and do your nonsensical stuffs first and meet me. It really proves alot lah. Now, i don't wanna be 'too' serious in this relationship. If one fine day you come to me and ask me why i've changed. Im gonna answer, 'ask yourself'. I wanna change to see you change. To see if you are there, always wanting to be with me. Its all not about the presence, its about the love. I don't mind that much if you don't show you love me infront of your friends that much. But to me, i just want to feel being pampered. Feel like someone really loves me. Not someone that loves me whole heartedly just after a big fight. Its all the thought that matters the most. I still love you tho it hurts. Do you even care if im down? Oh well, maybe your just used to see me down.

2011-06-24T20:13:00.001+08:00

I miss faizal yes i miss him alot. It has been almost a week since i last step out of this house and ofcourse almost a week of not meeting him I MISS HIM YES I MISS HIM ALOT :'(

2011-06-24T18:42:00.002+08:00

I misssssssss you faizal :(

2011-06-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

School is reopening soon and imma get my ass of studying. Not funny you know never study for n levels. Time flies so fast i mean too fast. No more staying up late in the morning and stuffs. Lessen on my enjoying outside. And lastly, i can't spend too much time on my boyfriend. Urgh, but whatever it is im happy that i could get out of this school in about a few months time. Yipeeeee~

Love,

2011-06-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

Faizal, i don't expect a perfect relationship. But you see we're really on the rock. We still don't understand each other. But maybe i understand you but you don't understand me. I know you want things to go on your way. Sometimes when i given in, and you see i would do anything for you. When i say anything, i would. Mark my words. Stole money just to cab to your house early in the morning just because i miss you and i want you to be with you. Sometimes people tend to do whatever they can. But for me, its not that expect so much from you. But at least some effort to show that you love and miss me too. I know you miss me. When you said you miss sleeping with me. Your imagining im beside you, i not stupid i know you want me to come. I have to slowly put a stop by pampering you too much. Me, as a human also wants to feel the pamper by her love. I want it. I've always been waiting for the day which you will not really 'forget' about your friends and concentrate on me. I have to admit, i got jealous when 'some' of my friends boyfriend would do anything for their love ones. I know you wouldnt wanna lose your friends again like last time. But hey, now they also have their girlfriends to pay attention on. Not only you. If you are their friend, you would understand whatever situation they are in. When your friends are with their girlfriends. Where were you? Your at home, thinking about them, you want them to be like last time. Me, as a girlfriend i gave you advises. But deep down, im sad. Seriously sad. When are you gonna go to tampines 'just to meet me' excluding your friends. I know you want to. But when all of your friends aren't here, your mood went down in the drain. You said its gonna be boring. Your talking to me, and you said that, what would i extremely feel? I feel useless and like you don't prioritise me like how i prioritise you. If just one fine day, im not there by your side anymore, i hope you'll have this in your mind set, 'damn, amira really did sacrifise for me alot, she's always been there for me no matter what' Even if you cheat behind my back, lie to me because of your friends, i would never fail to turn to you and even your friends which is also my friends. I don't know if your gonna understand what im tryna imply right now, but i miss you so much <3 :(

2011-06-11T23:50:00.000+08:00

On the date of 9th of June, I was really dissapointed of you and your attitude. I woke up, expexting a call or message, there isnt any of em'. So i cried my heart out across the house shouting to myself. He doesn't love me anymore. He doesn't care about me anymore. I've been thinking about us, how happy we were back then. Those beautiful memories we had. I've lost hope in love at that moment of time. Saying that things have changed just in a split second without me even imagining that i could lost him. He lied to me alot of times. But im glad he have never played behind my back. When i feel so lonely, lost when i my emotions were all scattered around, i started to have a mindset about mingling around. I chatted with all the boys that i know. And yes that part is my mistake.

LATER CONTINUE BYE

2011-06-10T00:24:00.001+08:00

i want a guy who pampers me. whom is afraid of losing me. a guy that compliment me eventough i said i looked ugly. i want a guy whom isnt embarrased of my flaws. i want a guy who always say sweet qoutes. tell everyone that im his and tells that im the girl for him and prove ppl that his willing to do anything for the girl. hold my waist while walking together. isnt embarrased of holding hands infront of crowds. would do anything to make me happy.

2011-06-09T00:31:00.000+08:00

OKAY FUCK IT IM LYING TO MYSELF BUT I HAVE TO MOVE ON FCK IT!

Liar is always a liar,

2011-06-09T00:11:00.000+08:00

"Dear Faizal, this face shows that i don't give a damn shit about you no more."

2011-06-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

It faded but i dunnoe why im crying.

2011-06-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

Jealous siaaaaaa tgk sweet couple. How their boyfriends compliment them in every way. Invite them to do something happening and stuffs. ARGHHH

2011-06-06T22:47:00.002+08:00

Why am i feeling so sucky? AKU MACAM NAK MATAE BARU AH SIA!

2011-06-06T22:45:00.001+08:00

"~~I have to stop sacrificing too much till i lost everything.~~"

2011-06-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

I don't expect you to be perfect but at least make me happy (Y)

2011-06-06T21:22:00.000+08:00

This is currently me nao. Yes, NAO. Have not bath for the whole day. Last 2 days slept at boyfriend's crib. I cabbed down and that money is supposedly for my ezlink money. But neh, its okay. Anything to make my boyfriend happy then im happy (: When he reached the place that i was supposed to stop for the taxi cause his holding on to my posb card cause before that i treat him for his cab fair to go home. He shouted at me through the phone and ask me where am i? Alot of times. He was being unpatient. So, i got angry and leaving the taxi with a long face. Then we're back to normal. His mummy tell stories bout faizal's dad. Then his back to his game. Sooooo, i sulk. Duh! Game, 24/7. Eventough sometimes it hurts when we play around bitting, punching, rolling over each other's body. I still had fun. He never fail to irritate me!!! But still who cares (:

2011-05-24T16:42:00.000+08:00

2011-05-23T00:51:00.001+08:00

2011-05-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

I miss and love you

2011-05-19T10:41:00.000+08:00

Baby do you remember this song? It is when we were contacting as in friends but i know you have feelings for me. You stalked me at facebook and stole this song from me. Then we met up, I heard most of my blog playlist songs is in your ipod. Awwww <3 So we started to be closed. Always slack together but we did not talk that much. Hakim and zaki only are the ones who talk and stuff. You were so shy back then. When we were bestfriends last time, and even ex's during primary school times.

2011-05-11T19:46:00.000+08:00

I need you but you don't need me.

Please change.

Things change, you don't realise any

2011-05-11T15:45:00.001+08:00

I don't know where i stand in your priority list anymore. You don't do the sweet little things you did like how you used to. I don't what to do anymore. I am at the verge of giving up. Maybe i didn't show anything but only myself will understand everything. I should really slowly stop showing to you all the things that i usually do cause i don't think by doing all of that now is making myself appreciated by you. I don't blame your friends. No i don't. I just feel irritated. You don't have the time for me anymore. All you know is just to enjoy. I always get jealous by seeing other relationships. Their boyfriends could show love and all those things that a boyfriend should do. But i don't know why you can't. You never make time for me. You don't go to my place just for me but your friends too. It always have been all the time you come here. I don't expect much but... Going to a month, we don't meet just personally. Just the both of us. Maybe all you think im just typing bullshits. These is what i've been feeling. I don't feel your presence anymore. I've been quite, acting normal but you just don't know what im feeling. Cause i never told you. I've been showing indirectly, but you just don't show it. Its time for me to stop thinking so much and concentrate on my studies. That's all matter for now. 4 more days to our 9th, i don't feel the excitement anymore. Tears are rolling down through my cheeks now. I don't know whether its me or is it you? Malay quote that I've been telling myself - 'Biar lelaki yang kejarkan perempuan. Jangan perempuan yang kejarkan lelaki' But i just couldnt.

2011-05-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

Always be home at the end of the day
Spend my time at home doing revisions
Save up money for my expenses
Do not use phone in lessons anymore!
Make my parents proud about my n level results
Always be punctual for school, exams
Control my ego everytime i feel like blowing up
Less puffing

2011-05-06T22:58:00.000+08:00

2011-05-06T22:19:00.002+08:00

These are my awesome friends.

What are words if you really dont mean em'

2011-05-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

HI BLOG, it has been a very very very long time since i updated. 2011 life has been good, but there is also tragedies that have happened. I can't be always stressing my self up cause this year i am taking n level and i aint gonna make myself occupied with things that are not worth my time. Maybe some day somehow.

Family have been good though as i have been very good to my parents now. Its just that some little minor mistakes i make, they won't be dragging it too long right? Heheee. Me and ayah's relationship so far have been good, you know right if i never go home and such things, he'll ignore me. But now its a stop for me cause i wouldnt wanna make them lose trust on me anymore. Maybe they still haven't trust me back yet? Only God knows. It has been a freaking loooong time since i shop. Fckin shit long i tell you. Pffft. I kept on using the same old thing to go out. Kindddda embarrassed actually. But if people wanna criticize, come come you are welcomed to treat me all the stuffs that i've been wanting yeah. Hehehe.

Me and Faizal. We've been doing great this pass few weeks. Slowly we are understanding each other's attitude and lower down our ego. But something just happened just now. I just hang up the phone and cry and cry and cry like a baby. But hell yeah. Crying is a good thing, don't cry in your heart, cry through your eyes. It'll make you feel much more better indeed. Confessed to him some things which i am not happy about. I hope after this, things will change. In a matter of the good way. Still loving him soo much, just like the first time i fall in love with him. Good feeling right? Heheeeeeeeee

What do you think about haters that spams your fs?

2011-02-05T09:51:00.001+08:00

They need to get a life and stop attention seeking :)

Speak it up to me.

2010-12-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

In love with this song (Y)

2010-12-15T02:39:00.000+08:00

2010-12-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

2010-12-07T11:50:00.000+08:00

2010-11-22T02:19:00.000+08:00

Miranda Kerr,

2010-11-19T19:37:00.000+08:00

She's fcken HOT

2010-11-18T06:26:00.002+08:00

cuuute kapaa hhahahhaha

Hari raya hor,

2010-11-18T06:00:00.000+08:00

HARI RAYA HAJI PIX. Tata mmmbekkkkk~

History,

2010-11-18T05:53:00.001+08:00

Okay girls, prepare to see our faces from p6 - sec 1. But pix not in order. Sorry, heh.

ENJOY!! :D

Ohmygucci! This cute hair of mine last time. hehhehee.

Fuck off,

2010-11-18T05:18:00.000+08:00

This is for you my formspring-ers. Stop asking stupid questions or even stupid remarks which is fcking irritating. Two words, FUCK OFF. <3

Pixie Lott,

2010-11-16T06:09:00.003+08:00

TheSex

For you baby,

2010-11-16T06:00:00.003+08:00

Still in my head you, Neyo <3

Stay by yr side,

2010-11-16T05:57:00.001+08:00

Heyyyho there are more pictures to be uploaded actually
I LOVE AMIRAH SUHAIMI.
one and only bestfriend.<3

For the rest of my life,

2010-11-16T05:15:00.000+08:00

Adores = HAIR (Y)

Fvck yeaaah. I need to do something with my hair. Getting bored with it. What should i do? Everyone told me to do curls. Big curls. But i have to wait for money. I need more suggestions.

Im still not asleep yet. I have to say that today's kindda bad day for me. Everything happened so fast and things and just not fixed yet. This small little little things we can fix it. But only if another party is willing to.

I love my boyfriend so much!

XOXO<3

2010-11-16T02:40:00.001+08:00

Different than others,

2010-11-15T05:41:00.000+08:00

Faizal,

I know i tend to get a lil bit sensitive, worried, a cry baby, a spoilt brat, screwed up and most of the time control you from doing anything that you want. But baby you know that when i don't let you do what you want cause i care for you. For your health &future. Im sorry for being too jealous most of the time.

I love bb <3

Forever and always,

2010-11-15T05:14:00.002+08:00

Okay im angry !! I uploaded the jurong pictures and waited for it to load like on mad cow now its all gone for bad! Grrrr. Its okay. Now lets chill and take a nap. Hope i can wake up later. I miss you Faizal <3

Ups and downs,

2010-11-15T04:19:00.000+08:00

Hehehee <3

Happy 3rd Months my babyboo! I've sent him a long msg, weee. He is currently sick now. Daaamn, pity him. How i wish i could be his side now. Pamper him like a kid, hehee.

I've got nothing much to say. I've not been going home and such. I have to change this habit of mine real soon. Next yr is my n level and im gonna bug my mum for a tutor by next yr. I can't study on my own cause no one wants to teach me ): so yeaah.

Gonna go bb's crib tomorrow as he needs me. Aiyaaaa. Miss him daaaamn much.

Much loves <3

2010-11-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

Currently at Baby's crib. His sleeping while waiting for his mum to finish cooking. Haissh, Im so bored. His sister inside the room alaaahaaaaai. BABY BANGON LAH!! :(

I never wanna lose you,

2010-11-10T14:24:00.002+08:00

I promise, baby

2010-11-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

HALOHALO .

Faizal Manaf here , currently bby is sleeping at my crib .

We havent sleep well , since morning .

Yesterday , she make me waited for her for one whole day ?

Had a bad time a bit ,

she cried .

Awwwwww~

But now , things are settle . hope that we will not fight or quarrel again .

Nites ! =D

You get my heart pumped,

2010-10-31T08:14:00.000+08:00

Today is a freaking Halloween Day. Fcking jealous when i saw different type of people pass by my workplace with their costumes. Sigggh. Nevermind, there's always a next year. Work was a totaaaaaal disaster. You guys saw the bloods outside Dte? Some guys were chopping some other guys. Fuck yeaaah infront of our fcking eyes. I heard the guy passed away. I don't what mistake he did or what so ever. But may he rest in peace. :(

Im working later at 1 and im still not asleep yet. Spend my day with love since its been awhile. But something happened. Siggghh baby. Its between the both of us only yeah. I still can't believe. I can see you really love me. Please be assure that i love you soooo damn much too. Now things are back to normal. But he kept on being sarcastic with me cause of work.Swear this holiday imma spend time with you, love. Im sorry if you don't feel like your having a girlfriend when im always busy working. :( I'll make it up to you. Promise.

All the freaky things we do,

2010-10-30T05:52:00.000+08:00

Im like posting in the middle of the morning! Im still not asleep yet. Just now finish work at 10 and went home straight. Rest for awhile. Met love under my block and yadayada he cabbed home and now his phone is with me. -.- But loikeeee hehehe. Tomorrow im working. ITS A FREAKING HALLOWEEN DAY! FML. Damn youuuu. I've missed it for like 2 years already. I fcking wanna go to the night safari. Wahliaooo!

Waste a waaaaaste. Ohh yah, i think my pay is in. I hope this time round my pay will be quite enough for my expenses. Sheeesssh. If not, im gonna request 5 times a week for next month work!! I want money. I love money. Money buy me happiness. CHEY LEK LUUU, FAKE!

Ohh yaaah lastly i love Faizal alot. We're still strong hehehehe muacks. Bb, fetch me from work kay tomorrow? Misss ya already

Webcam madness,

2010-10-29T02:36:00.000+08:00

Macpherson <3

Things change,

2010-10-29T02:11:00.000+08:00

Easy say, everything is my fault. Like seriously. I've said it like how many times. I don't know how to make things go the way it is like last time. Things change. Surroundings change. I have no idea how to turn back time and change things like how it was. I just miss everyone. Syahirah, Fatin, Esha, and the ones who were there when i need them the most.

Its us against the world,

2010-10-24T01:44:00.000+08:00

Just got back home from work. Met love for a while just now. Feeling so shagged, restless and everything. Grrrr. Now my phone is from love. Im meeting him later. Gonna bath and change then imma meet him again. Work just now was so busy. Now popeyes, every saturday and friday closes at 11 pm. Wowww, not gonna work afternoon on that two days. I dpn't care. Pay's coming in! So not gonna wait to shop as now there's a lot of sales going on. Hhehehe. Im left with 4 days and im done with school. Weeee! But imma wish my self good luck for my results. If its gonna suckkkk, then im speechless.

Actually i've got nothing much to post here. Im off to the bathroom. Tata peeps. Tomorrow's gonna be another tiring day for me cause im working, AGAIN!

Apple of my eye,

2010-10-22T10:30:00.002+08:00

And its true, love

Jogging with boyfriend,

2010-10-22T09:47:00.001+08:00

(Pictures not in order, more on fb)

Went jogging on the 19th of October. This prettyboy of mine decided to go bedok reservouir. His being so random. But before that, we had an argument. Easy say, a horrible one. So everythings done. We wait till the rain stops met. Quater way through, it rained AGAIN and we had to run to the nearest shelter and wait for the rain to stop. In that case, we challenged who takes the most beautiful pictures. HegHeg! Soon the rain stopped and went to the toilet. I want to go century square cause i wanna eat my favourite food, but he didn't allowed me at first cause of what are we wearing. I pestered and sulked. Then we went. Weeehooo. I know its stupid of me to eat this kind of sutff after jogging. But well, im not that fat, i don't care, heheheh

After finishing eating, he have to follow me everywhere i go. We went century square, tampines mall & t1. Hehe, sorry baby. I can't resists it maaan. There is sales all around. So tempting to buy :/ So we walked back to tampines mart. Lan as usual. He went street soccer and i went home. Was too tired. Washed up and everything i went down back again and met him at outside 7 eleven. Soon my mum came out of no where. Talked2 and went home take his earpiece and met him awhile Off to home.

WOWWWWWWWWW, long post. I don'nt think any of you guys are interested in reading this dull post. Hahahahaha. Byebye. Anw, i failed badly for my maths. I don't think this year i can get bursary again :( my wishes didn't came through. Amirah invited me for a movie with faizal but im having work later. I have to work cause pay day is coming and imma work as much as i could to get more money as last month i only got 190+. Im freaking sad. I wanna get more cause there is sales all around! Daaamn, i don't wanna miss this chance again!

Bf,

2010-10-22T09:21:00.000+08:00

This is so truuue. My gosh, this really proves that particular guy loves you alot. Wow.

Miracle please,

2010-10-22T09:16:00.002+08:00

The way we used to be.

A Gift From God,

2010-10-22T08:14:00.000+08:00

This is my beautiful mum. She's the best mum i could ever have. But at times, i just hate it when she doesnt understands me. But fortunately she understands me most of the time. With boyfriend and stuffs. She will be there when your down and give you full of advises and try to cheer up. I would not like to break her heart again. I love you mum.

Eight ways to win your heart

2010-10-20T17:10:00.001+08:00

Hug me from behind unexpectedly and kiss the side of my forehead or cheeks.
Willing to hear my silly stories, lame jokes and wild imaginations.
Make time for me no matter how occupied and busy you are with other things.
Get along with my friends especially my best friends.
Make me feel appreciated and important at all times.
Try to reply texts instantly, not ignore them when I know you check your handphone 24/7.
Be there for me especially when I’m at the lowest.
Kiss me when I’m sulking.

Pit shit,

2010-10-18T02:07:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday hakim & atikah! Hope you guys enjoyed the cake..

more pictures on facebook. Had so much fun with them even though some times i went inside the tent and take a nap for a while [x Hope the next one or which is not gonna be sorta cock up yeaah. Had so much fun with love too. Expected someone to turn up but nehhh didn't turn up. Missed those fun already. Hehe. Make more of this soooon guys!! ^^

2010-10-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

Me and boyfriend is getting stronger each day. But at times we misunderstand each other but awhile later either one or another party will give in. I must admit that sometimes i've hurt him about such small things. I understand guys now. His the guy that i loved so much. The guy that i trust and won't lose hope on. He do things that make me happy and such. No words could describe my love for him. I know this is so corky. But once in a while HAHAHHA love yaaaa so much

Friendships,

2010-10-07T10:22:00.000+08:00

I miss my girls. Its been a long time. I know i did the same mistake again. With everyone i pulaukan. I just miss those old times we had. Those crazy shit together. I don't know why im jealous when i saw the two of you guys photos. Hmmm. I've got nothing much to say. But sorrry and i miss you guys so much. Call me soon. I'll be there to pick up. Love you guys no matter what (':

Wtf much?

2010-10-01T08:53:00.002+08:00

I have alot of pictures to upload here but im just plain lazy. HAHAHAHAHA K BYE
I miss MAS

Highly attitude bitch in the hole,

2010-09-30T13:10:00.000+08:00

I know who are my daily readers. Since you came viewing mine from last week, i received hate tags. Wat the fck lil gal. Isn't it so obvious its you lil bitch? HAH. Nevermind, you don't know the real me. So just shut yr gap slutty bitch who admires a guy walking around with open arms. Your 1 year younger then me so just shut. Your sucha pussy huh for not stating your name. Why? Hiding behind your bloody computer huh pussy? HAHAHAHA WHATEVER BITCH

I only turn to my boyfren bout this, :c

2010-09-30T09:28:00.001+08:00

I haven't have the guts to face you. How am i suppose to talk to you. Can't you give me some time? Yah i know i never replied you cause i don't have any idea what to reply and further more i forget. When i rmbr back, i still don't have any idea to reply. I wanted to have a breakfast with you on wednesday but im late. So i have to just forget it yaah. I good cause you made the first move to msg me. I know i don't have the pussy to talk to you. Just give me time. I miss you.

2010-09-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i do a proper post yeah.

Soon, Hari Raya will end soon and EOY will start. I haven't start on anything. I really need to buck up on every subject. Even on my Malay im not confident in doing the paper. Hmm, yaah. Hope what im typing this imma do it. Hhee. Gonna Raya later with friends and love. I want to jalan raya with my bff but were not in a talking terms.

2010-09-18T04:11:00.002+08:00

LOVE

Hari raya fever,

2010-09-18T03:45:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf zahir dan batin. Much loves, Amira <3

2010-09-16T12:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my 1st monthsary with my Pumpkin

2010-09-14T14:08:00.001+08:00

My have been easy for me now.. ill continue later.

You should know why,

2010-09-07T03:24:00.001+08:00

'I admit I'll never be the perfect friend. I'll never be there always. I may not make u smile at times but there is one thing I admit I could do. To be the person I could be for you. I miss US and im sorry bf.'

come to me money

2010-09-07T00:19:00.002+08:00

Soon in my dressing table , weeeee

2010-09-03T08:55:00.000+08:00

2010-09-01T12:59:00.000+08:00

Miss ya bby,

2010-08-31T17:27:00.000+08:00

Cherishing every moment we have. Missing ya already.

Love gets stronger each day,

2010-08-28T04:53:00.000+08:00

Im sorry love for what has happened. Its my fault. I quickly cabbed down to your place just to settle things cause i love you alright. Love ya

Step up 3d,

2010-08-28T04:48:00.000+08:00

Gonna catch this movie tomorrow. Hopefully its gonna be an exciting day

Hairzzz

2010-08-28T04:40:00.002+08:00

considering this hairstyle during the hols <3

New chapter of life,

2010-08-27T01:06:00.001+08:00

Met love,

New love built,

2010-08-23T01:27:00.000+08:00

Im proud to call you my boyfren,

2010-08-19T14:58:00.001+08:00

Hi love, your worth being my boyfriend love you so much &

New love built,

2010-08-18T23:30:00.001+08:00

That is so true. One day i have to show you this picture. Tomrrow give school a skip. Now im at Kak sri's place. But unfortunately im working at 6 tomorrow. Just wanted to chill pill.

And yah, i miss Faizaaaaaaaaal. Oh my gosssssssssssh~

I've found the one,

2010-08-18T01:36:00.000+08:00

Life has been great. Been busy with school, friends, work and love. Honestly, i only fasted only for 1 day. One day i gave it as a skip and the remaining is due to menses. I hope this will end soon so that i could fast. I really think this is a good way to lose some weight yeah. When you want to fast, and people is eating in front of you. Don't ever get influenced and you have to control your temptations. In this fasting month Allah is testing us how patience we are. Feel the way how the unfortunate humans are feeling. Okay i shall not brag about this matter yeah.

So basically tomorrow is a late day for school. That's why im tryna fit in some a lil time to update my un-updated blog. Exams are around the corner. Shall start studying for math as all topics in gonna be in the end of year paper. Its really freaking me out. I hope i could get the bursary award again and i can bank in that money in my account for my future. Hehe. Im thinking so far right.

Ohhh yah, now you don't even wanna look at my face. Its like as if I'm at fault. Never mind, imma pray hard and hope you realise what are you doing and saying right now. Tryna make you realise doesnt mean i still love you. Just wanna let you feel how I've felt before this past few months. Not tryna revenge here. Keeping myself quite and making you be heartbroken is the way to make you realise i guess? If its not gonna strike in your head, total speechless.

Another thing, im proudly to state that im blissfully attached. I know its so fast. But we went through alot for the past years. Some may know who and what. Much loves,

XOXO

Fck off busterd,

2010-08-15T22:13:00.002+08:00

You posted something at your facebook and i can see that your an angry guy now huh. I don't mind posting such things. Before you post something which is assuming that everything is my fault. Go look back, go mirror yourself and ask yourself. Do you deserve to be return by me in this way? All this while i loved you. When we drifted apart i tried myself to get your attention. To get you back in my life like how we used to. But I'm sorry. You've just missed your i don't know how many times of chances being back together lie how we used to last time. Its not gonna be the same anymore. Trust me. You posted and said i didn't show you that i love you? Did you showed me last time? Now i can't, cause i don't seem to love you anymore. When you want me back, i didn't say anything and just go with the flow. I was contacting someone. He loves me and showed he loves me deeply. I didn't want to say anything to you about him yet cause i wanna see if there is any changes in you or not. When i was observing you, i knew this time round you'll gonna be the same. And yes, you've proved to me. But even if you changed for the better, things wont be the same anymore, boy. I've learned to move on and not look back in the past. You've made me suffer alot through the old times. Now theres no more chance for you. You didn't win my heart. I love this guy and he stole my heart . He took care of it. He sacrificed alot. He showed me he loves me. I know and i believe he can be the one I'm relying on. The one I'm not gonna have false hope on.

I love Faizal.

History,

2010-08-03T14:05:00.002+08:00

Much Misses, <3

Desperate huh?

2010-08-03T13:54:00.001+08:00

I don't know what my heart is feeling. I love him. I love him.

URGGGGHH!! fck!

Guilty,

2010-07-30T00:12:00.002+08:00

I certainly do not know what to reply you. I was just out of words. No words can describe what im thinking and feeling. Even my friends ask me i couldn't seem to let out the answer. Im sorry friend. Am truly sorry. Im not this type of person you knowwww :(

Now i dun care about that part,

2010-07-30T00:09:00.000+08:00

‘I love you’ means that I accept you for the person that you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect perfection from you, just as you do not expect it from me. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means loving you when you’re in a bad mood or too tired to do the things I want to do. It means loving you when you’re down, not just when you’re fun to be with. ‘I love you’ means that I know your deepest secrets and do not judge you for them, asking in return only that you do not judge me for mine. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love enough not to let go. It means thinking of you, dreaming of you, wanting and needing you constantly, hoping that you feel the same way for me.

2010-07-27T09:39:00.001+08:00

Currently in lab. Later after school maybe im meeting esha and atin. Not Working today. Yesterday work was very slack. Me likey. My sales is like 500+ only. Cool. And we went home early. Hmm. Later will be having p.e. Ishhh, im so tired of playing p.e 3 times a week. People say its fun but its too tiring man.

And guys, i think im in love. Like at last, He've waited me for years. Like at last my heart is open for him. If not i kept on hurting him and such. I've been feeling awkward everytime when im together with him. The feeling has gone. A new love built.

On the other hand about someone, you posted something on yr facebook which made me teared. Its sweet. But i can't be with you again and again. Cause you've really lose my trust on you. You've broked my heart for quite a couple of times. Im not a toy alright. Now yr doing it again. I don't think i love you anymore. Im sorry but you've lose yr chance on getting my heart back. Goodbye.

This cycle will just go on and on,

2010-07-23T19:04:00.000+08:00

2010-07-22T10:39:00.000+08:00

"Happy Happy Racial Harmony!"